Longing's Cry - Poem

 

"Where are you? Where are you?" my heart cries out,
seeking after the woman who'll be my wife.

"Where is she? Where is she?" I cry to God,
both my Father and hers.

"What do I do? What do I do?" I long to know,
that my desire may be fulfilled.

"Wait on Me. Wait on Me." comes the reply,
sure and familiar from my God.

"Waiting sucks! Waiting sucks!" I cry out
in longsuffering grief.

"Waiting does suck, but sometimes it's necessary."
Loving empathy from the Ancient of Days.

For now, my heart's pain has been soothed.
But waiting does suck.
And until its end comes,
The pain it causes
Will flare
Once again.

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