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Seeking My Heart's Pain - Poem

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My heart cries out, "I hate my life!" My mind's reply Is "Why?" I am lonely Where are my peers? Thanks be to God for my sister. Working alone Working from home Leaves me feeling isolated. So here I sit, Trapped in my room Surrounded by stuff I've not got space to use My own little prison. The Internet offers me Parasocial relationships. But I want something genuine. My heart cries out, I feel constrained Cut off Isolated Alone. Where are you God? How do I escape this prison? Where are the people I long to befriend? How do I find them? How do we connect? What do I do? I'm quartered By loneliness A pressing urge to do something Anything And a faith that says, "Wait on Jesus." "It'll be worth it." All the while My heart screams In tensile agony. Please, God, Save me!

How Elden Ring's Reinforcement System Undermines Ashes of War

In FromSoftware's Elden Ring  there is an extensive weapon customization system called "Ashes of War." This system allows you to change a weapon's special skill, and it's also linked with the infusion system that lets you change its damage properties. However, not all weapons can have Ashes of War applied to them, typically because they have unique skills. These weapons usually upgrade with Somber Smithing Stones instead of regular Smithing Stones. In other words, it's generally correct to say that weapons that upgrade with regular Smithing Stones can have Ashes of War applied to them, while weapons that upgrade with Somber Smithing Stones cannot. This all makes sense. It's cool to have unique weapons with unique skills in the game, as Souls games have traditionally had, and to have those unique weapons upgrade with their own material, again, as Souls games have traditionally done. This format works well, since it means regular weapons aren't competin

Good News Gone Bad: Why Does My Heart Fear God Isn't Good?

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          The most important claim of Christianity is that God is good. While I believe this with my mind, I’ve come to realize that my heart fears that it might not be true. I want to know why, but to figure it out will require concentrated introspection, and I’ve found that the best way for me to do that is to write because it forces my brain to think things through. I’ve decided to make that process public in the hopes that it might be of help to others. The result is akin to a polished journal entry. I hope you find this look into my mind and thought processes useful as I attempt to uncover the reasons why my heart fears God might not be good. Part 1: Doubting God’s Goodness           It is my general belief that a key source of these fears has its origin in culture, both Christian and secular. To be clear, many of my issues aren’t from things people deliberately taught me; rather, they’re things I absorbed. Unfortunately, cultural osmosis has proven to be the worst way to learn t

Psychopomps Are Missing Progress Report for December 2022

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  Hello, and welcome to my sixth  progress report  for  Psychopomps Are Missing , the  RPG Maker MV  game I'm currently developing. This is a quarterly report about the progress I've made towards completion of the game. If you want updates more frequently than that, I recommend subscribing to the  $5 tier at my Patreon , as the diary entries at that tier include updates if I've worked on the game that day (along with information about other projects I've got in the works). Videos about the game are  available on my YouTube channel, which you can watch  here . You can find the most recent progress report here . It also happens to be the first progress report since the big change in direction to the game, which you can read about there. Note: In November, I ended up starting a short side-RPG Project. This was to get some creative ideas out of my head. It uses a much simpler framework than Psychopomps for worldbuilding, which will help me get it done substantially faster.

Psychopomps Are Missing Progress Report for September 2022

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Hello, and welcome to my fifth  progress report  for  Psychopomps Are Missing , the  RPG Maker MV  game I'm currently developing. This is a quarterly report about the progress I've made towards completion of the game. If you want updates more frequently than that, I recommend subscribing to the  $5 tier at my Patreon , as the diary entries at that tier include updates if I've worked on the game that day (along with information about other projects I've got in the works). Videos about the game are  available on my YouTube channel, which you can watch  here . I've also started releasing builds of the game on my  Discord server  in the  #game-development  channel. The messages that contain the download links are pinned. Everything Is Subject to Change Ordinarily I'd now point you to the first  article where I explain how I'm determining completeness for Project Psychopomps Are Missing . However, between the last progression report and this one, I've decide