Sientir's Blog

I have an annual tradition of reviewing the previous year and setting goals for the coming year. As a new year has just begun, that means it's time to continue this tradition by looking back on 2025 and looking ahead to 2026! The previous articles in this tradition can be found here:  2023-2024 , 2024-2025 Looking Back on 2025 My goals for 2025 were: Take care of my health—both physical and mental, play more games I haven't played before, make more progress on a game, accept the me God's made me to be (and trust in Him more), invest in relationships, and continue real-life dailies diligently. So, how did I do on these goals? Take Care of My Health—Both Physical & Mental This was a sort of meta-health goal, combining several things. Notably, improving my diet, sleeping better (this was mostly about being more consistent with my bed time), and moving more were all physical goals and limiting grief-inducing media was pretty much the only mental health goal (though it is  a...

I've spent a lot of time and energy on this blog figuring out who I'm not, but I've not entirely put together who I am, and I think it's high time I focused on that. As I view it, I've filled in a lot of the negative space in this piece of art that I call myself, and now it's time, with God's help, to figure out my identity, to fill in the positive space. I find myself thinking about all of the challenges that have led here. There are so many forces telling me who they think I should be. Cultural forces, both secular and Christian, have conspired to try to convince me to take up the identities they would have for me. I must deny them and disown that false self. It is only my Creator who gets to say who I am, and it's been a long labor of His helping me learn who I'm not. If I'm to do as I've said I wanted to do this year and accept the me God has made me to be , I need to understand who that person is. Also, I should state that everything I ...

So I'm aromantic, so what? I know what it means To love family and friends And I know the craving For sexual affection But Eros is a stranger That's what! In truth I feel fear and frustration at Eros's ability to color my words and add false meaning to them Why must romance Turn a compliment an expression of gratitude or seemingly any phrase into flirtation? Why must Eros add A hidden meaning? I long to say, "Your beauty  has made me happy." A simple expression  of gratitude Why must romance Add to my words a meaning I did not Intend? So I'm aromantic, so what? I know what it means To love family and friends And I know the craving For sexual affection But Eros is a stranger That's what! What makes a date More than hanging with a friend? What makes a romance Different from a friendship? What makes a marriage More than best friends for life? What I want is Best friends with benefits Best friends forever Friends who will not Neglect me Who will be My family S...

Last year I decided to start a new annual tradition : reviewing the previous year and setting objectives for the coming year. A new year has begun, which means that it's time to continue this tradition by looking back on 2024 and looking ahead to 2025! Note that this year will be a bit different from last year. You see, this year I have last year's goals to review, whereas last year, I didn't, as I'd just started the tradition. That means things will be structured a little bit differently this year. Looking Back on 2024 I had a number of goals for 2024 of things I wanted to work on. They were: better sleep discipline, watch less YouTube (and game more), better portion control, make substantial progress on my game, stream a few times per month, knowing God's love for me more deeply, and developing community and relationships. Let's review these! Better Sleep Discipline Last year I said I wanted to be better about getting to bed, but the focus was actually on gett...